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Exams ended like a one week ago and had been working almost everyday. At least that keep me busy and stop me for thinking about it for that moment only. Till now I still can't seems to get over it, will tend to think about it whenever I am alone. That hurts really alot alot, even till now. Can there be a complete cure to it? I hate this feeling and don like the person whom I am now. Too much mix feelings, hurt, wounded and can't seems to focus on the things that I set for myself.

Other then that, work was getting more and more interesting. Everyday I get to experience different things, get to face different challenge. I get to know the good and evil side of all humans, be more understanding and get to know why people tends to do things this way. All these contribute a lot to my life experiences.  

I know that there is no way I can feel hurt and sad cos of that incident cos it had left a huge impact on me. But that shall add as a reminder and lesson for me ba... 

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Spent my valentine with the animals! Hehe, Damn shag but it was damn fun after all. Went to the zoo with MinYi, SiewLin and JunYi in the morning and went back to birdpark to help out bqt for their Valentine dinner event at night! Took lots of photos and had lots of inside jokes. Hehe. The Valentine dinner that they had in birdpark is actually to have a dinner wif the PENGUINS! They are indeed beautiful animals, so fat and cute! That was the first time I had actually come into so close contact wif it! <3 

Somehow came into a realization that I rather have a some very very close guy friend then a boyfriend now. LOL! That was a random thought from yst. Hehe.

How blurr can I be to actually didn't realize that my contacts lens is tore and still continue wearing it and lost my Ezlink card! T.T  However, really thanks God that there no infection in my eye and I just receive a call from my granny that I had actually left it at her hse! Hehe! =P

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So so much things had happened recently. But that make me wonder and ponder more about myself. Just what kind of person am I to the people around me? This week is filled with disappointment, hurt, sad, laughter and anger. However, everything is over liao, I hope so? =/

Realize that I had a group of friends or rather many people who are just too overly concern about me. Of cos, there's always a pros and cons to everything. You know who you are, just wanna say I feel very very blessed to have you guys! Really appreciated the things your had done for me even to the extreme extent.

Note to myself:
Stop thinking and fear for the things that is gonna or might not happen. Find back my determination and get things that done. Worrying is not gonna take me anywhere. GET STARTED! =D

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I had been lying if I said that I am alright. I am alright when I am with my friends. However, it is a different case when I am alone. My mind just start to go wild. thinking of things that I should not be thinking, Feeling damn down these few weeks. That was just too much info and everything just come and right smack on me. All these was too sudden. The thought of it just make me realize that everything was just nothing but lies. KaiQin, you had cried enough for these pass few days already. Accept it, get over it and move on! Stop letting these thoughts hurt you and affect you in anyway anymore! Just gonna stay strong!
In any case, I will still be there whenever you need me and our friendship won't be ruin because of that.

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This week passed by with random chat with Dennis and Sharon at the library, poker at QiuLing's house with Angeline, dinner with Aaron and Nicole, pool with Aaron, Nicole and WeiXuan and hosting two Birthday party...
Spent my week catching up with all my lovelies and digging more and more secrets from them. Wahahahax! =P
Had so much fun this week. At least it make me feel that I am a step more closer with them.
Time to get back to studies already. No more playing for the moment as exams are coming really really soon. Time to be serious and get down to work already.

Awwww. I'm so in love with kids! Hehe.

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Finding life more and more meaningless. Haiz. I don know why. Need to find some meaning and goal. Or not I will be like wasting my life away. The feeling is like you are doing something, but then you have no idea what for you are doing it. Doing things jus for the sake of doing and does not feel satisfied at all. No mood for anything, Something is missing but then I have no idea what is it, Really need to find the missing pieces. Don wanna spend my life being so moodless every single day.

HAPPY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY! 

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Days passed with Shaun trying to match make me with one his random friend, teaching Nicole EM3, WeiXuan causing me to lose my bet with Nicole, dinner with the cute couple, QiuLing and Eugene. These are the moments that make me laugh so much. LOL.

Thanx Nicole for making me realize so much plus points about him! Hehe. It is time you really get out of your on and off relationship. Find someone who truly worth you, one who is able to bring you out of your past and lead you into the future, one who is able to take you out of from that curse if your life. It has been a long time since I saw you happy. Being really happy. Wanna see the beautiful smile of you once again.

QiuLing and Eugene really make such a cute couple. So happy for the both of them. Hope that they could really last anot it will be a pity. Eugene is just the perfect one for this beloved gurl of mine.

Someone asked me would I really be happy if the guy that I loved is tgt with another gurl. Of course i would! If that's the thing that could be able to put a smile on his face and make his life a beautiful one, why not? I may like him, but I'm not gonna let you know. Satisfied with our relationship now.
Loved you for a thousands years~
=)