Mixed feelings. It's been a long time since I ever felt this way. I was ok for a moment but at the other moment I started to feel sad for no reason. Don like the state I am now. Can't seems to focus and do well in anything now. I know I shouldn't have feel this way but I just can't help it. I got a feeling that he is in love with the gurl next to me and not me. I have fallen for someone whom I know I shouldn't. All this is just gonna make me stronger and stronger.